an April catalog of adventures thus far

This month has had so much in it and it's not even to the halfway mark yet. ✩

It started with a defining basketball game at a bar that is a trademark of the university, and rushing the streets afterwards to avoid the baby fires I was too nervous to jump over knowing my luck.
I learned a thing or two about the sport, and I could have been one of those girls in college to watch gmaes just for the sake of friends and company. I don't know why I thought it was all a waste of time. Lowkey ashamed of underclassman Lizzie.

Then C. and I went to the library book sale that I had been looking forward to for the past couple of months. I got plenty of books, and there are a few that I'm exceptionally excited for: Grief is the Thing with Feathers (current read), I Wish Someone Were Waiting for Me Somewhere (also a current read), Love in the Time of Cholera, Lolita (no gaudy-tacky cover included), Dead Souls (1942, illustrated, smell-good-trusty-hardback), various chapbooks of poetry, and The Russian Dreambook of color + flight (absolutely no pictures taken during the adventure --too distracted and curious to bother with them).

I also read and finished The Luzhin Defense. I feel like I need to give the second half another read, but part of me just felt off put or rushed or maybe I just love reading children so much more than adults --but either way, it was a good read, ✩✩✩✩. Enjoyed the childhood, enjoyed the end, enjoyed the wife's wedding night.

The most recent adventure was with C. and J. and we went to a honeysuckle tea room. I always try so hard to love tea and it never quite works --there was one time in my life I fully enjoyed a cup of hot tea and it was at Nana's in her bed while Bobshi was dying and it was sleepytime tea and I've never found another cup to taste quite like it. Perhaps grief or sadness had something in it.

But I will find a cup of happiness that will have me and I'll drink it for the rest of my life.

But it was a wonderful day and we walked around looking for dandelion puffs to make wishes on but I kept kicking them to help spread seeds for the sweet future little honeybees and then it became harder to find wishes but it was fun all the same.

And for whatever reason, my legs were exceptionally, luminously pale that day, regardless of the light or angle, haha. But I found a deep abyss-like Alice-like hole and the trees cup the parking lot if you even want to call it that because there is none.

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I visited Prof. L. today after not seeing him for months and months maybe a year and he was so happy and made me promise him to come back again --he said I was radiating positive energy and it all felt very hopefull. It was a very quick thing --it's exam/final paper season so he had students to talk to but it was still very, very nice. I think on Monday I'll stop by and see if K. is in, I owe him a visit, too. It's been such a nice day, I wanted to tell someone about it.

Also on the bus today (well I first spotted them at the bus stop after seeing the professor) --there was a small boy and his father and they looked so much alike and the boy was covered in multicolored marker up to his knees and his father seemed so unphased and they took selfies and talked like they were best friends and I was so proud to see them and I couldn't help but laugh and I think I might have been in the background of one of their selfies and I hope I'm smiling to myself because I couldn't help it. It made me even happier to see them, and I was already chipper and swinging my legs at the bus stop before them.

Well, I think I'm off to read or find another adventure, who knows, really.

With so much love, Lizzie. x

because not much else is happening and I need to de-stress; a spring-inspired book tag

So this started circulating on booktube, and I kinda really liked the questions so here we go:

1. What books are you most excited to read over the next few months?
        Finishing The Luzhin Defense by Nabokov
        Annihilation by Jeff Vandermeer
        Sexing the Cherry by Jeanette Winterson
        The Good People by Hannah Kent
        Possibly rereading Peter Pan after watching Jen Campbell's analysis
   
   
2. What book most makes you think of spring, for whatever reason?
        I'm not really sure how to answer this one; to be honest, most books either heavily remind me of winter or summer, rarely do they remind me of the transitory months. But if I had to pick one, I'd probably say Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, simply because it is young and childlike and fresh (and I also read it during the spring semester of junior year in high school so..).
   
   
3. The days are getting longer --what's the longest book you've read?
        War and Peace. Although I'm still super happy about reading 1Q84 this year, too, even if that one is about 250, 300 pages shorter than W&P.
   
   
4. What books would you recommend to brighten someone's day?
        I'd probably suggest The Little Prince, even if it does have some tones of sadness in it, I still find it really sweet and endearing (and it can also be read in one sitting, which may be what someone needs when they need something bright).
   
   
5. Spring brings new life in nature --think up a book that doesn't exist but you wish it did (eg. by a favorite author, on a certain theme or issue, etc.)
        I'm sure this exists somewhere, I just have yet to find it (although I haven't been really looking too much). But I'm very, very fascinated with and particular about guardian characters. Like, I don't know what I'd expect from another author, I just love platonic, guardian-protector-like characters, who defend in ways that don't hinder or cut down the person they love at their growing points. To take Plath's imagery, I don't want "guardians" who put their loved ones in bell jars.
         Also, anything platonic/asexual/aromantic is a go.
   
   
6. Spring is also a time of growth --how has your reading changed over the years?
         Well, it's shifted from fantasy-esque (although I still do like fantasy in other formats, like video games, graphic novels, anime, etc.), but in the form of written novels, I tend to lean towards the poetically weird. It's done a shift from fantasy to magical realism. Oh, and dystopia.
   
   
7. We're a couple months into the year --how's your reading going?
         So far I'm super proud of myself! I mean, compared to last year and the year before where I read next to nothing, I'm really happy I've read 6 books so far (and one of those books was 1157 pages!). And I'm a little shy of halfway through Luzhin, so I'm really looking forward to the rest of my reading year c:
   
   
8. Any plans you're looking forward to over the next few months?
        Yes! Even though they're mostly geared towards summer, they'll probably get touched on in May when it's still technically spring :) One; I want to write my children's novel, so I'm aiming to having the first draft done by the end of summer, so hopefully 'round the end of August! And two; I'm going to start up a little gardening project this late spring/summer with some coworkers (and maybe my family) to help save the honeybees! I'm really hoping, even if it's really small, it'll kick start at least some food for the baby bees.

Okay, well that's it! I'm off to adult some now, and maybe get some reading done. Until next time,

Love, Lizzie. x